I was lucky………..


I knew i would have to write this at some point. Knew I wanted to write it, knew I needed to write it.  All my years as a family liaison officer count for nothing.

At 23:40 hours on Friday 21st April  my dear Mother took her last breath and started her journey from this life to the next.  I cannot praise the nurses and doctors enough for the care they provided for her.  She died very peacefully for which I am eternally grateful.

But I was lucky.

I was lucky I had the chance to say goodbye and be there at the end.  I have not been that lucky in the past.

I was lucky that I did not have to say goodbye to a son or daughter.

I was lucky that I had the chance to say goodbye and not have to wave her off on yet another mundane day without saying that I loved her.

I was lucky that she was not involved in a collision where her body would not be suitable for viewing.

I was lucky that I had wished I had said things that I didn’t.  I have joined that club also.

I was lucky that after receiving a call from from my step Dad that my Mum had had a massive heart attack I made straight to the hospital from work and spent the next eleven hours with her until she died.  I was lucky that I had the chance to say to her what I wanted to say even though towards the end she was not with us.

I was lucky that I was able to hold her in my arms together with my Step Dad as she died, stroke her hair, kiss her forehead and squeeze her hand.  Tell her I loved her and that I always have and to let go, not wait on us.

As distressing as it is, not everyone is this lucky.  And as upset as I am, I feel for those relatives that not have been as lucky as myself.

There can be no life without death. Peace.

I was lucky……


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  1. sorry to hear this, Mums are very previous and always there for you. You have to think of the good times you had together at times like this. God bless you.

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